frargh

[askerian]

Last month I was writing SO MUCH!!

We're 11 days into a new months and I've written, let me check... oh huh okay 5 000 words, that's not too bad, man it's crazy how my self-perception tends to only base itself on the last two days. If I haven't written in two days then I haven't written in AGES and I am FAILING HOMG but no pressure, self.

But still, hn.

One of them is the beginning of Jade's scene in Garden, yay, the other one is a brand new, silly sequel to the john/jade(/karkat) chatlog fic. It's another chatlog! :O This time Karkat really is in it.

Neither of them, you'll be surprised to learn, is Teamwork. :O

I have the file open right now. I'm staring at it. Sakura refuses to do anything interesting. When I try to make her go smart she goes "this is so dry and emotionless" and when I try to make her emotion-thinking she goes "why am I regressing to my Teamwork 1 self here" and, I don't know, mostly I keep going "aaaaa will i manage to write the naruto/sasuke interaction right i should have written it back when I ahd the scene in mind and it was still ALIVE aaaaaaaaaaa" and it's distracting me a lot from Sakura's scene, where the only hook is whether she'll win her match or not.

I'm hesitant to give myself an ultimatum à la "write 500 words of teamwork a day!!!!!" because sometimes that works and sometimes that backfires horribly, but at this point it seems obvious I'm not going to be brushed by the magnificent plumage of Divine Inspiration anytime soon and maybe I should just slog through it and just be DONE WITH IT and be able to get to the NEXT PARTS AAAA.


I've also been flopping around a lot wanting to write GW bondwolves, only I've been wanting to write HEERO and Mary, not Duo and Killer. Only the way the fic keeps lengthening on me there's still a whole two chapters at least before Heero pops up. Goddamn it. But at least I still feel like I'm progressing some on that fic, because even if I'm not writing I'm still watching the episodes while biking away, and nowaways what I do when I get off is write down how the plot diverged where and why, and where the wolves were at the time. XD

For example when Trowa was lost in space with amnesia he comes down to Earth with Quatre and Heero and Mary, and when Heero and Mary peel off he stays with Quatre (no space for two wolves in the compartment underneath the pilot's chair, no matter that one of them is a teenage bitch-puppy that's still half grown up.) Meanwhile amnesiac!Trowa is wondering what is missing so horribly, even though the obvious answer should be YOUR MEMORIES DICKFACE it never seems like that's quite it. I think when he sees Duo in the audience with Killer (there is no making a bondwolf lie down between the rows of seats so he'd be highly visible) he'd probably fall right off whatever he was balancing on at the time with the headache of the century, and then Catherine would *really* kill Duo. XD

Seriously with all the many times the boys were taken prisoners and their wolves taken hostage to ensure coperation and all the accidental separations (read: selfdestructs XD) it's a real game of musical chairs. I don't think any of the wolves has NOT been separated from his human for unreasonable lengths of time and a lot of incertitude re: how the fuck do we find each other again, which is not really how these things should go but then again gundam pilots don't really do things by the book, like, ever, anyway. Wait, Glen hasn't been separated from his master yet, but I don't think it helps seeing that Treize is going to kick the bucket on him at some point and is already loudly and repeatedly thinking about it and asking random pilots to please kill him. XD;



re: battlefield terra, I have a collection of ideas of what happens in this chapter and am now trying to tie them in a way that does not scream HOMG FILLER EPISODE. Actually it really shouldn't be fillery at ALL, I'm just not seeing it clearly enough to write. Hrrn. Must brainstorm more.

Comments

[tephra]

Hmm, I think I'd write Sakura in the dry way and then go back and add emotional seasoning, just to get through the block. I find it easier to add that sort of thing in edits than to remove it. And you might find that once you get going that it only starts out dry and gets more emotional as the scene evolves. I could totally see Sakura shutting down at the start of the match just to toughen up and get through it and then letting more emotion out when it goes from "getting ready" into the actual match.

[askerian]

For me the emotion needs to drive or it doesn't work right, but even then it's not the real issue. I don't know what the real issue IS, mind, just that there is one, but it's more with me than with the fic. I should really just sit down and type. Frargh.

[tephra]

"I should really just sit down and type. Frargh."

I think you just summed up my situation with my six NaNo stories. XD

Something about the situation in the scene is stomping on a hot button you didn't know you had? I've had that sort of thing pop up on me before.

Though at least when I went and named a character after an old friend and then had the story board the express train to squickville as I wrote it I was able to point at the name as the trigger. If only all hangups were that obvious.

[askerian]

I think the button is mostly "wargbl dun wanna", which happens every time i feel a little obligated. Of course the longer i let it run and the huger the molehill gets, and now it's enormous. DX

[tephra]

That is a very common button. Unfortunately I haven't figured out an easy way around it yet.

[askerian]

aha! no, i think the issue is that i've been somewhat dissatisfied with the pacing of TW 3 for AGES. At first the kyuubi thing wasn't so HORRIBLE, it was supposed to be the first bad obstacle, and now we're coming up to the second and hopefully denouement of the whole fic, only the way it built up the Kyuubi thing became this huge cataclysm and after that there was the fight to overcome that clusterfuck and then the coming-down and feeling a little healed/resolved/closer, which would have worked just fine for the climax/denouement of the whole fic! only now I have a SECOND event to bring up and it's... going to be a little big, yes, just... not going to measure up in sheer horror and emotional investment. I can only bring the akatsuki around once, amongst other issues.

I think I need to get one of my friends who don't mind getting spoiled over on AIM and hype that upcoming scene to them and myself (it doesn't work when i just talk to myself about it, weird enough XD) so I feel motivated to get through the slower setup parts once again and so I can clarify events to myself. That might work. Hmmmm. Just thinking about the possibility i'm a little interested again. XD;;

[tephra]

Kyuubi is a hard act to follow, he, and the plot threads around him, are just so beyond the scope of normal human drama that what comes after will be in his shadow. On the other hand, the interpersonal relationship tangles and "normal human drama" are a lot easier to identify with and relate to so I think they can carry their own weight.

"Hmmmm. Just thinking about the possibility i'm a little interested again. XD;; "

Yay! \o/

[ellenel13.livejournal.com]

IDK when I get stuck in writing I just start writing until something legible comes out

[shewhoflies.livejournal.com]

I can think of nothing but all the false starts you're dicarding that I'll never get to read.

TRAGEDY.

;___;

(oops commented on the wrong post :-x)

[azrealryryko.livejournal.com]

...WHAT IS THIS *AWESOME* MADNESS!!!

Ah-hem. Please don't let that idea fall aside! I must see it done!

[askerian]

which idea is that? XD;;;;

[midget-arnold.livejournal.com]

Don't pressure yourself to write! Write because you enjoy it. :) Hmm, you know, maybe you should read some stuff with Sakura if you are having issues with characterization. Maybe some of your favorite fics with her or just favorite Sakura canon bits? Or least favorite canon bits if they inspire you more. Just to get in the groove of the character. (You're quite good at writing her, no worries. :P)

It has been a while since you wrote Teamwork, so I think part of the problem might be your having a hard time getting back in the mindset maybe? You have...quite a few writing projects. All of which I enjoy. XD But keeping every single story in the forefront has got to be hard, especially given the length of the works and the in depth world/plot building you do. Just...try not to get into a new fandom soon, and it should all work out okay. *furtively knocks on wood*

[askerian]

Yeah, my pushing back the teamwork writing time doesn't help. Homestuck hasn't helped either but really i've only been seriously into it for the last five months or so, and the slowing down on teamwork has been going on for longer than that. It doesn't help I'm kinda loving the manga less. I still like it but not as much. Sadface. ;__;