askerian | Random babble.

So recently I've been v. depressed sob sob over how much my f-list activity has dwindled. Used to be I'd have to go back two pages if I missed one day, and now there's maybe four more posts a day and I am a sad and emo Asuka.

But then I thought, hey, I haven't been posting much either.

Mostly I keep feeling like I can only post, and therefore spam people, if I have either fic or manga observations to share.

I don't post my random thoughts/plotbunnies/crack scenarios because right now most of them are about Homestuck and I'm pretty sure most of you guys aren't into that and i've been enough of a virus vector already, and I haven't seen a good fandom meme that I haven't done already in ages (kinda want to do a "opinions on pairings" meme for homestuck because I have ~feelings~ but aaaaa), and my real life is boring as fuck and not something interesting enough to share. (okay no yes I've gone from 180 pounds to 144 in the last six months and i'm not done yet! >:O i'm exactly five feet tall so yes, still quite visibly overweight. shut up i'll be proud if i want to be. told you it'd be boring!)

But as a result I'm complaining of something I'm doing too. Hrrm.

It doesn't help that I'm guilting over not writing much teamwork recently. (but hey! the other day I started chapter two of the wedding fic. It has Sasuke and Naruto and Sai at a bathhouse. Sai keeps being Sai at the two of them, which is hilarious but hard to balance lest I fall into total moronisation of the guy. :/ Still, it's not teamwork proper. hrrrrn.) I think part of that is the canon hasn't been really grabbing me as much as it used to recently. Insane!sasuke is so frustrating and Naruto the lone hero who makes token "efforts" at team fighting while gloriously bathing everything in his radiance as Sakura is sidelined... meh.

(the rest of that is that I have to write a Sakura-POV fight scene while naruto and sasuke are off having relationship angst in the background. I like writing fight scenes, but only if there's emotion in it, and I REALLY like to write character interaction, which cannot be focused on right now because dramatic tension blahblah. If I keep stalling on it, it means I'm doing something wrong with my plotting, but I haven't figured out what that is yet.)

I need to rekindle my love for Naruto. Maybe a reread/rewatch. Idk.

I need to friend more communities with interesting stuff on it? but like what. No clue. aaa.

I need to start posting on LJ more! D: but about whaaaaat. DX

Argh. Stupid f-list. Update more, damn you!

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Low-carb. Niiice. And I wish there was a way for me to watch anime while cycling but I don't have an exercise bike. :( *sad face forever*

I've been trying to give up pasta. It's hard (Damn you 1/64th Italian heritage! XD)

I ended up going to the gym today after all, first time in ages, only an hour and I got a major headache from it but I'm going to aim for once a week then see if I can bump it back up to 2-3 times a week again. Fumbled somewhere juggling uni work and lost the habit a couple of months ago. So yeah, thank you for that. I always have in the back of my mind 'but it won't make a difference' and I guess it doesn't in the short term, let's hope I can keep it up longer this time. Thank you~

Best of luck speeding the weight loss up again! *huggles*

no no no no don't think of it as giving it up D: just as making space in your diet for vegetables and stuff! if you cut yourself off entirely, guarantee you'll get cravings and break down and start eating it again, only you'll feel guilty about it, too. D: Pasta is too yay to give up.

(pfffffffft 1/64th Italian heritage. XDD)

and YAY FOR EXERCISING! >:O be strong be strong raaaa~ *pompoms*

Yah, it's only in the past year or so that I've been able to eat salads and actually like them... of course, there are the days I eat nothing but crap like pancakes and milkshakes (homemade- that's makes it totally okay! >_>) but that is very rare these days.

As for pasta... hm, weaning myself off it might be a better term. I was raised on the stuff but I'm trying to find alternatives to it and potatoes, or at least have less/cook it a healthier way.

Was there a goal you had in mind or an event you are preparing for? I would like to wear a short dress for my high school reunion if I bother to go but meh, don't care much one way or the other. People keep telling me I need short term goals. Urg, so troublesome. U__U

*Pointed stare at avatar* Oh Cloud, why do you look better in a dress than I do~ >_

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