Random babble.

[askerian]

So recently I've been v. depressed sob sob over how much my f-list activity has dwindled. Used to be I'd have to go back two pages if I missed one day, and now there's maybe four more posts a day and I am a sad and emo Asuka.

But then I thought, hey, I haven't been posting much either.

Mostly I keep feeling like I can only post, and therefore spam people, if I have either fic or manga observations to share.

I don't post my random thoughts/plotbunnies/crack scenarios because right now most of them are about Homestuck and I'm pretty sure most of you guys aren't into that and i've been enough of a virus vector already, and I haven't seen a good fandom meme that I haven't done already in ages (kinda want to do a "opinions on pairings" meme for homestuck because I have ~feelings~ but aaaaa), and my real life is boring as fuck and not something interesting enough to share. (okay no yes I've gone from 180 pounds to 144 in the last six months and i'm not done yet! >:O i'm exactly five feet tall so yes, still quite visibly overweight. shut up i'll be proud if i want to be. told you it'd be boring!)

But as a result I'm complaining of something I'm doing too. Hrrm.

It doesn't help that I'm guilting over not writing much teamwork recently. (but hey! the other day I started chapter two of the wedding fic. It has Sasuke and Naruto and Sai at a bathhouse. Sai keeps being Sai at the two of them, which is hilarious but hard to balance lest I fall into total moronisation of the guy. :/ Still, it's not teamwork proper. hrrrrn.) I think part of that is the canon hasn't been really grabbing me as much as it used to recently. Insane!sasuke is so frustrating and Naruto the lone hero who makes token "efforts" at team fighting while gloriously bathing everything in his radiance as Sakura is sidelined... meh.

(the rest of that is that I have to write a Sakura-POV fight scene while naruto and sasuke are off having relationship angst in the background. I like writing fight scenes, but only if there's emotion in it, and I REALLY like to write character interaction, which cannot be focused on right now because dramatic tension blahblah. If I keep stalling on it, it means I'm doing something wrong with my plotting, but I haven't figured out what that is yet.)

I need to rekindle my love for Naruto. Maybe a reread/rewatch. Idk.

I need to friend more communities with interesting stuff on it? but like what. No clue. aaa.

I need to start posting on LJ more! D: but about whaaaaat. DX

Argh. Stupid f-list. Update more, damn you!

Comments

[rosalui.livejournal.com]

;_; I do understand these thoughts.

I'm as passionate as ever for my love of Naruto, but I haven't read it in ages - too many fights, too much superpower, and still no resolution in sight. ;_; I can't deal.

But I always love to read the things you write. You're brilliant. You inspire me every day I try to do my own writing. \o/

[zerubel.livejournal.com]

If the canon isn't grabbing your interest, you could always poke some other fanfiction that's floating around out there (always gives me ideas which is rather useless since I don't write.) I'd be more interested in homestuck but I always get stuck (har har) on the MS paint..flash...thing. So I will ask you, is it ms flash paint w/e the whole way through, or does it change?

[askerian]

Alas it is indeed flash paint the whole way through, barring some flashes that are done with drawings instead which are pretty badass, but comparatively there's not a ton of them. ^^; Sorry, hon.

I don't usually get inspired from other fic, unless it's like "okay that idea was awesome and they handled it like ass i could do it better" but that's pretty rare, and I have so many Naruto fics to finish already I don't want any new ones. XD;; Blah, i'll manage something.

[windandwater.livejournal.com]

I've dropped off in my posting as well, but my LJ has mainly moved to more RL things than fandom things anyway. T_T I think everyone is going to other sites like DW and FB, etc., instead of staying on LJ. Plus, everyone is getting older and has jobs and things to do. That cuts down on happy LJ time.

[askerian]

rl posts are also good! i want to know what's up with sera-love ;.;

urk FB. just URK. :/

[windandwater.livejournal.com]

I'll try to post more! I've just been caught up making jewelry. XP

And I don't mind FB! I'm actually being more social there than on LJ, though FB is more for my RL than fandomy things.

[neko-no-yume.livejournal.com]

I know the feeling of falling out of love with Naruto canon. I used to follow it religiously but then the 4th ninja war happened... and the zombies... and the fights between people I didn't care about...

I went oh a good few months just flipping through the chapters without my usual urge to read and find out what happened.

That's starting to come back finally now that actual plot is going on aka Sasuke and Itachi meeting! By the way, where exactly is Sakura anyway? I haven't seen her in ages... ^^;

Also, someone from the main alliance has to die! I don't care who it is really but come on! A major war where only fodder dies? It looses the whole "epicness" in terms of plot.

At this rate, it's only going to be remembered as: "Oh this war happened, random people died, not anyone that I could actually name mind you." Not like the previous war at all. ^^;

Regardless, I hope you find your Naruto spark and are able to enjoy it once more! When I get bummed out, I watch old pre shippuden episodes, especially around the time Sasuke gets his cursed seal. Man those episodes were cool!

[fonsetorigo.livejournal.com]

Late to discussion is late.

For me at least, my love of things is directly influenced by people around me. In that when their interest is strong and I have people to talk and discuss with, my muse is haywire, but when I don't, nothing happens.

My love of Naruto is a really good example. When I had someone to talk to about it, it was crazy, and then I started talking to people that made me feel dumb and criticized the things that I enjoyed and posted about, it killed it. Then I found other people again, and oh hey look -- fic everywhere! For instance, my narusakusasu fic hadn't been updated for a year because I got told it was dumb and not a good reworking of a plot. But then you mentioned you enjoyed it, and bam, there was chapter 2.

So... Maybe the quietness of muse is a mix of not having anything you enjoyed in fandom, as well as the quietness of f-list. D:

[askerian]

Huh, that could very well be it. I haven't read any naruto fic in SO LONG, and I have no idea who still writes the niches I enjoyed and I'm not following any WIPs actively anymore (i've got author alerts on some things but. but. argh.) but where to find more people to fangirl with? wauuuuuuuugh. even the narusasusaku fanclub on narutofan is pretty dead. *angsts*

yeah um about your fics ;__; you locked your fic masterlist? *has a sad*

[fonsetorigo.livejournal.com]

Yeah, same. Though lately, I've been suffering from people ruining fandom for me . The rp comm I was part of well... well the girl that played Sasuke with me, we had a disagreement, and then I went on holiday for a month. And I just... died. Much the same way you have, sadly.

D: Oh lordi! Yeah it was out of date, and I went to fix it, and the html just ate itself, so I locked, because I couldn't be screwed to fix it. Not that - ahhh - I am what I think you are looking for to read, truth be told. My fics are... weird. XD Rofl.

[askerian]

aw, that sucks. ;_;

Well yes. I keep staring at the elizabeth/hashirama wondering if i want to click, considering I don't know her canon at all and I'm not super interested in HIM but you're probaby doing super original and possibly SHINY things with, but, i don't know enough about them! dilemma. But I know that when you're writing in the niches where we overlap I enjoy the hell out of them so umm. .__.

[fonsetorigo.livejournal.com]

FFF. It happens. Rather sadly. I was so so happy with shiny shiny Gaara, and then, it got eated by people. ;w;

Well uh... She's the Queen of England. And... well it's not very long, so if you clicky, there's not much to read (and people that... have no idea about it either seem to think its okay?). X3 It doesn't go much into canon either beyond he makes wood things, and she rules a Kingdom filled with bitchy-plotty people that make her bitter. They seem to get all my pretty symbol stuff. NaruSakuSasu gets all my twisted dirty messy love stuff and my Gaara pairings get all my self-redemption stuff. FFF.

Also: derp I am very glad to hear that you enjoy those rare bits we both enjoy. <3