*...flops*

[askerian]

It's strange how my desire to write and my ability to actually come up with coherent prose work in cycles. And those cycles are not in synch. It's kind of frustrating. I've spent the last week tortured by the kind of impulse I can only describe as "ahhhhh i want to wriiiiiiite *whine whine whine*" and yet being unable to even decide which fic I feel like working on, much less actually come up with appropriate opening sentences and descriptions and whatnot.

Want to know what's REALLY frustrating?

Not the brand-new magical apocalypse o-fic that gave me about five pages of settings and characters and ending, and refuses to tell me what actually happens at the start or anywhere close to the middle. Not the dozen oneshots that would be SO EASY to finish and post and bask in, if I could just redirect a little of that o-fic inspiration there. Not the fact that none of my current WIPs give me anything but the meh at the moment (it will pass, happens all the time, but... Meh.)

What's really really super horribly frustrating, is that I have a horrible. HORRIBLE. craving for a canonish story that would involve Heero Yuy and the rest of he gundam wing boys. As werewolves.

which I already wrote. which I still can not and will not finish, because there are too many plotholes to ever fix, and I know that perfectly well. Which I want to remake anyway. Which i'm too lazy to remake all the way, my god, it would be thirty chapters long.

Damn you, Heero. Just... argh. ARGH. Stop giving me PTSD-interacting-with-wolf-instinct and solo-guerilla-agent-conflicting-with-pack-inclination thoughts. Because while I might want to write those themes, RIGHT NOW, I just don't have any idea what setting or scene or mood or plot-like goal or ANYTHING I could even frame them in, and if I can't do that then it's just not going to go anywhere, is it?

But I still have werewolf!Heero in a corner of my head, staring at me. Waiting. Waiting.

And if I only knew how to cave in, pride be damned I would cave in like an old swiss-cheese-like mine entertaining a couple metric fucktons of high explosives.




My deepest thanks to y'all who tried to help on the previous teamwork bit. i'm still digesting all the suggestions and trying to see if anything surfaces. It's going to take a little while for it to unblock, unless I get a flash of genius tomorrow... but i'm not counting on it.

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[askerian]

But the thing is that Heero does not tell me what he wants me to do with him! D: he's just... here.

... except of course being heero, he's a contrary bastard. I just now figured out the beginning of a plot I like. I know NOTHING ELSE about it, but at least I have a scene? God.

I think i'm going to follow your advice and write it down, and it will be total fanservice and I won't feel obligated to keep going with it and maybe it'll unblock me. Yeah. I'll do that.

[mika-kun.livejournal.com]

Please post it even if it's missing parts? I love wolf!Heero even if I only get him in tiny proportions.

[sunhawk16.livejournal.com]

You, my dear, are a tease! ^o^

[askerian]

You like it, though. u.u~ fufufufu.

[sunhawk16.livejournal.com]

Yes, but I would like it better if you wrote it and shared! ^^;

[ryouseiteki.livejournal.com]

I had 3 paragraphs of stuff typed up and Mozilla crashed - BOO.

Since I'm too lazy to retype it and have no iconspace due to my free account I'll leve this here and, um... I approve of anything related to lupinewavelengthhemaveraforms? 8D

[askerian]

noooo my comment ;_; evil mozilla.

... it took me like five minutes to realize what this icon was. and then suddenly it was... whoa. teeth. *__*

[ryouseiteki.livejournal.com]

I know :(
It's like on one of my favorite forums that automatically times you out if you take too long, so when you have a long comment you take a risk of losing it because of being logged out. >_____< *headesk*

So yeah, loved Garou, love anything to do with werewolves. <3

Lol it's from the episode 'Tooth and Claw' of Doctor Who; they're being chased by the werewolf and hide in this room and suddenly things go quiet so he puts his ear to the door and the wolf is doing the same thing from the other side. xD

*hops over to youtube*
Here (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-aD3GWhZ-8c)'s a 30second fan trailer for the episode that has the moment in it, it's quick but I don't think they have the full episode anywhere online to scrounge for it. XD

[uneko.livejournal.com]

Garou? Garou!

That was the first thing I read by you XD Remains one of my favorites. Werewolves are sexy. :3 I love supernatural AU's and fusions and canon-ishes and.. yeah :D

WRIIIIIITE IT! oh and draw it :D

[askerian]

XD;;;; *petpetsoothe*

yes, yes, they are. *__* and I shall. huhuhu.

... I need heero icons.

[nilladriel.livejournal.com]

hahaha oh you. Just write wherever your muse takes you, don't bother resisting. It'll lead you back to your WIPs eventually. Maybe. Hopefully?

Or this could all be futile, but you know.

And you could write that ofic's ending xD And. Well. Who need beginnings, anyway? Or middles? *cough*

[bluegenius.livejournal.com]

I don't think anyone who read Garou would be apposed to a little snippet of something that attached to it. Or even something vaguely like it. I certainly wouldn't, I still reread it every once in awhile.

That stuff it hard to get out of your head sometimes. I hope you manage to get it out somehow.

[uminohikari.livejournal.com]

You could do like, a rewrite of Garou? With an entirely different plot..

[sheikah-minuet2.livejournal.com]

*Cough* Ok I know you don't know me but way back I was a huge fan of your werewolf fic so when I checked back a few minutes ago and saw this... well it was kindav something I could not ignore...

Anyways I'm going to redirect you to Alpha & Omega by hadesphoenix which you should enjoy... and which could bunny you like crazy... or just give Hade's more fans. Either way it would be good.