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It's strange how my desire to write and my ability to actually come up with coherent prose work in cycles. And those cycles are not in synch. It's kind of frustrating. I've spent the last week tortured by the kind of impulse I can only describe as "ahhhhh i want to wriiiiiiite *whine whine whine*" and yet being unable to even decide which fic I feel like working on, much less actually come up with appropriate opening sentences and descriptions and whatnot.
Want to know what's REALLY frustrating?
Not the brand-new magical apocalypse o-fic that gave me about five pages of settings and characters and ending, and refuses to tell me what actually happens at the start or anywhere close to the middle. Not the dozen oneshots that would be SO EASY to finish and post and bask in, if I could just redirect a little of that o-fic inspiration there. Not the fact that none of my current WIPs give me anything but the meh at the moment (it will pass, happens all the time, but... Meh.)
What's really really super horribly frustrating, is that I have a horrible. HORRIBLE. craving for a canonish story that would involve Heero Yuy and the rest of he gundam wing boys. As werewolves.
which I already wrote. which I still can not and will not finish, because there are too many plotholes to ever fix, and I know that perfectly well. Which I want to remake anyway. Which i'm too lazy to remake all the way, my god, it would be thirty chapters long.
Damn you, Heero. Just... argh. ARGH. Stop giving me PTSD-interacting-with-wolf-instinct and solo-guerilla-agent-conflicting-with-pack-inclination thoughts. Because while I might want to write those themes, RIGHT NOW, I just don't have any idea what setting or scene or mood or plot-like goal or ANYTHING I could even frame them in, and if I can't do that then it's just not going to go anywhere, is it?
But I still have werewolf!Heero in a corner of my head, staring at me. Waiting. Waiting.
And if I only knew how to cave in, pride be damned I would cave in like an old swiss-cheese-like mine entertaining a couple metric fucktons of high explosives.
My deepest thanks to y'all who tried to help on the previous teamwork bit. i'm still digesting all the suggestions and trying to see if anything surfaces. It's going to take a little while for it to unblock, unless I get a flash of genius tomorrow... but i'm not counting on it.
Want to know what's REALLY frustrating?
Not the brand-new magical apocalypse o-fic that gave me about five pages of settings and characters and ending, and refuses to tell me what actually happens at the start or anywhere close to the middle. Not the dozen oneshots that would be SO EASY to finish and post and bask in, if I could just redirect a little of that o-fic inspiration there. Not the fact that none of my current WIPs give me anything but the meh at the moment (it will pass, happens all the time, but... Meh.)
What's really really super horribly frustrating, is that I have a horrible. HORRIBLE. craving for a canonish story that would involve Heero Yuy and the rest of he gundam wing boys. As werewolves.
which I already wrote. which I still can not and will not finish, because there are too many plotholes to ever fix, and I know that perfectly well. Which I want to remake anyway. Which i'm too lazy to remake all the way, my god, it would be thirty chapters long.
Damn you, Heero. Just... argh. ARGH. Stop giving me PTSD-interacting-with-wolf-instinct and solo-guerilla-agent-conflicting-with-pack-inclination thoughts. Because while I might want to write those themes, RIGHT NOW, I just don't have any idea what setting or scene or mood or plot-like goal or ANYTHING I could even frame them in, and if I can't do that then it's just not going to go anywhere, is it?
But I still have werewolf!Heero in a corner of my head, staring at me. Waiting. Waiting.
And if I only knew how to cave in, pride be damned I would cave in like an old swiss-cheese-like mine entertaining a couple metric fucktons of high explosives.
My deepest thanks to y'all who tried to help on the previous teamwork bit. i'm still digesting all the suggestions and trying to see if anything surfaces. It's going to take a little while for it to unblock, unless I get a flash of genius tomorrow... but i'm not counting on it.