askerian: Serious Karkat in a red long-sleeved shirt (Heero_Garou)
askerian ([personal profile] askerian) wrote2006-06-07 07:54 pm

(GW) *sigh*

I think it's time for me to stick an "abandoned" tag on Garou and start translating the scenes I have and summarizing the scenes I planned, since I can't add anything new. I've been reluctant to say it out loud, because so many people loved it and it led me to meet and befriend so many awesome people, but I have to admit it -- this story is dead. It's dead and it's not coming back.



This story was one of my very first Gundam Wing fanfics. GW was my fandom for -- I don't even remember how long. It just made sense -- I loved the G-boys, I loved werewolves. I didn't look at what had been done before; I just did it my way. I think that's partly why so many people liked it. (another part was that it promised a 1x2 pairing, and many, many naughty and cuddly moments. Don't lie, you pervs.) And I had so much fun with it. But the fact is that this was my first fanfic, and I was still a teenager, and as all first fanfics, some parts of it kind of suck. Especially the beginning.

Starting to write without ever having seen the series? Check. Hints of Relena-bashing/Heero Hates Relena? check. Fangirl Japanese? Check. Quatre as a crybaby? Check. It got a lot better as time went on and I grew away from fanon (and learned better English. u_u;;; ) Still, the inability to pick a starting point in the series' timeline and instead taking whatever events I liked or could remember and pretending the rest had never happened, the unlikely coincidences, the "don't care if that shouldn't work, it's cool and it would be shiny", the lack of real overall plot... They never really got all that much better.

I don't want to write something because it would be shiny, despite the fact that it shouldn't happen. I want to write shiny things that make people go "ah! that seems so evident now, and yet I would never have thought of it", or "so THAT's what you were leading to all along!" I like being original, and yes, I'm proud of it, but I want to be coherent. And Garou is original, but dude, it's the farthest thing from coherent. XD I wonder how many times I contradicted myself on characterization alone in there.

All that and the fact that the G-boys are now empty to me. I don't know -- they just don't resonate anymore. They're too empty.

I tried writing more, and while I still like what I already have of the chapter, there was no drive at all to edit or add anything to it, much less complete it. None at all.

So that's it. Garou is dead. It's been dead for a while now, I was just too chicken to say anything. Or maybe I was waiting for people to lose interest already. (dude, you're a stubborn lot, aren't you. ♥)



If someone suggest that I let someone else finish it for me, I will murder them with my teeth. Just saying. :3




EDIT: SUMMARY OF THE END OF GAROU. I'll see about translating the scenes another day. Thanks everyone.


Le même en français!

Je pense qu'il est temps pour moi d'admettre que Garou est abandoné, de poster les scènes que j'avais écrites il y a quelques siècles, et de résumer le reste de ce que j'avais prévu. Je ne voulais pas l'admettre tout haut, parce que tellement de personnes aimaient ce fic et qu'il m'a aidée à rencontrer tant de gens vraiment bien, mais je suis bien obligée -- cette histoire est morte. Elle est morte et elle ne reviendra pas.


Cette histoire était l'une de mes toutes premières fics Gundam. GW a été mon fandom pour -- je ne me rappelle même plus combien de temps. Mais ça coulait de source -- j'adorais les G-boys, j'adorais les loups-garous. Je n'ai pas vraiment cherché à savoir ce qui s'était fait avant; j'ai juste écrit à ma manière. je pense que c'est en partie pourquoi les gens l'aimaient bien. (Une autre partie était probablement que j'avais promis du 1x2, et beaucoup, beaucoup de moments câlins et cochons. Ne mentez pas, bande de pervers.) Et je me suis tellement amusée avec.

Mais le fait est que c'était mon premier vrai fanfic, et que j'étais encore une ado, et comme tous les premiers fanfics, certains trucs ne sont pas terrible. Surtout au début.

J'ai commencé à écrire sans jamais avoir vu la série. J'ai tapé sans remords sur Relena et décidé que Heero la détestait. Quatre le chouinard? pareil. Ces points là se sont beaucoup améliorés au cours du fic. Mais quand même, l'inabilité de choisir un point de départ dans la série, de choisir les événements que j'aimais bien et d'ignorer les autres, les coincidences grosses comme des maisons, les "m'en fous si ça devrait pas marcher comme ça tant que c'est cool et/ou sexy" (les mâles n'entrent pas en chaleurs. XD), le manque de scénario global... ces points là ne se sont jamais arrangés.

Je ne veux pas écrire des fics parce que ce serait cool, malgré le fait que ça ne devrait pas se passer comme ça. Je veux écrire des trucs qui sont cool et qui font dire aux gens "ah! Ca a l'air si évident maintenant, et pourtant je n'y aurais jamais pensé", ou bien "anors c'est à CA que tu nous menais depuis le début!" J'aime être original, et oui, j'en suis fière, mais je veux aussi être cohérente. Et The Werewolf est original, mais quand à la cohérence, on repassera. XD Je me demande combien de fois je me suis contredite ne serait-ce qu'avec la caractérisation.

Tout ça, et le fait que les G-boys me semblent vides à présent. Je sais pas pourquoi -- mais ils ne résonnent plus. Je n'arrive plus à me mettre dans leur peau.

J'ai essayé d'en écrire davantage, et bien que j'aime toujours ce que j'avais déjà écrit pour le prochain chapitre, il n'y avait aucune envie d'éditer ou d'ajouter quoi que ce soit, encore moins de le compléter. Rien du tout.

Donc, voilà. The werewolf est mort. Il est mort il y a un bon moment maintenant, seulement j'avais pas envie de l'admettre. Ou peut-être que j'attendais seulement que ses fans se lassent. (wow, vous êtes têtus, n'est-ce pas. <3)


Si qui que ce soit suggère que je laisse quelqu'un d'autre la finir à ma place, je les égorge avec les dents. Juste au cas où. :3

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Quand j'aurai fini de traduire le résumé du reste du fic en francais,
j'ajouterai le lien ici.

[identity profile] hime-no-nishi.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 06:22 pm (UTC)(link)
I think that it's a good idea not to let anyone continue it. That story, in my mind, is EXCLUSIVELY YOUR WORK. To me it's one of the things that defined you as a writer. It is a pity that you can't continue it but the finalization is so much better than just letting it hang. And yes we are a stubborn lot. This is why we've hung on so long.

[identity profile] hitori-toshiro.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 06:23 pm (UTC)(link)
J'imagine que ca veut dire qu'on peut aussi tirer un trait sur cloneness et compagnie...
Oh, well... Il reste Naruto XD (tu sais que malgré ma répulsion actuelle pour l'univers, je ne peux pas m'empêcher d'aimer tes fics naruto ? Tu es vraiment diabolique ^^)

[identity profile] yuenoclow.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 06:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Awww. While I'm disappointed that Garou is dead, I can't say I'm surprised. Its been pretty obvious you've lacked interest in it, and if you can't get yourself into writing it, there's no point in beating the thing to death. *hugs* And while there are several bits of early GW writing, its still enjoyable to read. ^^ Though I would appreciate you translating any bits leftover from plotting the thing. Unfinished fics are a bit annoying. =P Ah well.

...And any idiots who get pissy at you about dropping it deserve to be shot.

Sad

(Anonymous) 2006-06-07 06:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Very, horribly, stubburn we are. And now, I think I can safely, we are also very sad.

Garou was one of the first stories I actually took great pains to follow and find again when I lost it, when I decided to delve into the great writhing beast that is fanfiction.net.

I suppose I am upset because through Garou I found your other pieces and the works of others, which is amazing because it was pure luck I came across it. I am sad because my gateway for meeting you and others is unfinished and incomplete.

However, it is your life and what you do is your business. If you do not feel that you can safely finish it without the earnestness, creativity, and the originality that drew readers, then it is perfectly fine to lay it to rest. We'll just pray that you don't stop writing or drawing completely, because then I will really start crying.

Bye, thanks for the good time.

[identity profile] meanne77.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 06:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Cause she's a pretty good fellow...
*hugs*

[identity profile] kiyakotari.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 06:58 pm (UTC)(link)
**snort** Hell, if someone else tried to 'finish' it I wouldn't bother reading their parts. I don't read the fanfiction because I like the G-boys, I read it because there are a few authors I like. I read your stuff, Maldoror's, Sol1056's, and...um...Sunhawk's. I think that's about it. I know I'm missing someone, but I can't recall who off the top of my head.

I'd be very interested in reading the translations of those parts you've got done in French, though. ^_~

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[identity profile] na-no-nai.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 07:12 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs* I can totally sympathize.

I was beginning to lose interest in DBZ before I found Naruto, and what little bit I was still clinging to disappeared when I finally did watch those first few episodes. I left some stuff unfinished, but I don't think anyone's all that upset in my case. It's not like it was any loss to the fandom or anything. :P

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[identity profile] spacefragments.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 07:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, I have to admit that I lost interest on it, too. Maybe the lack of updates and the fact that I'm moving to another fandom myself. ^^;

It's your right to decide what you do with your work. I'm not a writer, but I've felt that way with some of my artwork. It's hard to have a loved idea die when it started out so well. It sucks, but sometimes it's unavoidable. Things change.

It's better to put a definite end to it now than keep on insisting and beating it to death until you end up hating it.

I just hope your "fans" don't hunt you down and lynch you, hahah.

[identity profile] animeprincess.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 07:16 pm (UTC)(link)
I had been watchingstalking you for a while, and I had heard you mention Garou about a bajillion times, when i finally had decided, "Well, she mentioned it and a whole lot of people like it, I'd better go see what the fuss is about". So, I read it, and it was a cool story. I remember thinking, "Huh. That's pretty neato. That's shiny too --- OO! SMUT!" and then sort of wishing there was more, but where I'd left off was sort of leaving it in a suspenseful sting, but I almost like that better, what with imagination taking over.

It doesn't matter you didn't have more. You lost interest, and that will tend to happen. You take it out, look at it, and say to yourself that this was something you did when you were younger, and look at how your writing's improved in the time between then and now.

It was good for its time, and for your writing evolution and education. And now you have other things you can work on, other plotbunnies to gnaw upon your noggin. It's time to move on, fangirls.

[identity profile] sabriel-sylfaen.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 08:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Does that mean I can leave the Sleepless Trilogy unfinished? ^^;;;; *ducks thrown objects*

Dead comme dans... Dead ?

(Anonymous) 2006-06-07 07:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Je parle très peu anglais, mais j'ai relativement compris : plus de Garou ? Du tout ? Je comprend que tu l'arrête, c'est le droit de tous les auteurs, surtout lorsqu'ils estiment que c'est comme ça, mais... Bon ^^'
En tant que lectrice de fics françaises (suis une quiche en anglais, mais alors... Ca fait que les 3 quarts de tes fics me sont inaccessibles), Garou a été une révélation pour moi, et pour ça je te remercie ^^ Je n'ai retrouvé une telle qualité d'écriture que chez de rares auteurs (Kineko OMG comme c'est bien ^^ et quelques autres), alors je trouve ça un peu dommage que tu l'arrêtes.
Je ne juge pas, vraiment, mais ça me fait un peu mal au coeur d'avoir attendu si longtemps pour m'entendre dire que c'est fini. Je pense que ça va être le cas de bcp de tes fans (passke yen a booocoup ^^), et puis je me dis que toi aussi, ça doit quand même t'embêter, une fic inachevée. Enfin... C'est la vie ^^
Merci de m'avoir fait découvrir GW grâce à Garou, et puis... Ya toujours tes dessins (ils sont vraiment géniaux ^^) ++

Drys

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[identity profile] des-butterfly.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 07:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Sometimes stories die. It's sad, and it's frustrating for readers and writers alike, but it's just the way of things.

And we ain't getting paid for this, so really, nobody owes anybody anything.

Poor Garou *pats it*. You had a good run. We shall remember thee fondly.

[identity profile] sabriel-sylfaen.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 08:08 pm (UTC)(link)
*sad face* Awwww phooey...I was looking forward to more Garou too.

Oh well, it's YOUR brainbaby, not mine, and I'm not going to be so stupid as to berate you over a bunny that's stopped biting. I will avidly R&R to whatever bits and summaries you post in the wrap-up and look forward to more Naruto smut instead. ^_^ *boobnuzzles*

And anybody who offers to finish it for you SHOULD be murdered with your teeth cause there's no way they'd ever be as good as Teh Asuka. -.-

[identity profile] maxwell-terry.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 08:14 pm (UTC)(link)
T____T it's the most sad moment for me after knowing that Parallel is dead too...

But... you just moved on the GW fandom, Garou is unique, i hunt all the fics i could with the GBoys as weres and yours beats them all...

Well Rest in peace Garou... T_T -cries-

And by the way... I loved Equilibrium and Walking on the tigh rope...

And now i really like your Naruto fics (i'm really new in that fandom xD thanks to you *O*) I hope to see your beautiful artwork and ficcies.
ext_2686: (he's married to the angst)

[identity profile] stripedpetunia.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 08:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, I never read the thing anyway, so eh. I have to say that it's good you finally officially let it die, so the fangirls can stop hoping and pestering you. And good on you for trying to summarize the ending; if I ever drop an epic like that for any reason I want to be sure to do that, too. It's just cruel to the people who hung around and read it for however many years to not tell them the ending, at least. Also it's a good thing to point at when people get it in their heads that you'll change your mind about killing it if only they harass you enough, those twats.

Now you can focus happily on Naruto without guilt lingering in the back of your mind about how you think you should be trying to poke at Garou, and in the end doing nothing at all. More often. ♥

You should totally put up as the summary: 'EVERYBODY DIES BUT IT WAS ALL A DREAM. THE END!' I would lol.

[identity profile] montypythonoide.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 08:38 pm (UTC)(link)
It's a pity that you won't continue it, but I shall forever hold the published parts of Garou dear. This fic has a special place in my heart as it was the one that drew my attention to the GW fandom. It was very well written (despite the Relena-bashing - I think I've never seen a fic without it to date, so it doesn't matter) and I really enjoyed all your other works as well. I wish you good luck in continuing with your writing and will eagerly await the continuation of your other stories, especially Teamwork. (This isn't a nudge, I'm not saying that you're obliged to write it - I just want to express my admiration for your talent and how it makes your readers go "that was great, can't wait for more". No fantwit behaviour here, hopefully)

[identity profile] kaligami.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 08:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Je vais certainement faire partie des nombreux décus mais je comprend aussi et respecte ton choix, GW c'est maintenant loin pour moi et j'ai quitté le fandom il y a déjà quelque temps mais j'avoue que j'étais toujours contente de voir arriver la suite ou bien un morceaux de chapitres ici ... Mais si tu n'en as plus ni l'envie ni le plaisir, ca ne sert à rien de te forcer, cela s'en resentirait lors de la lecture et ca serait du gachis pour tout le monde ...
Une page se tourne ...
Histoire de pas finir frustrée, serait il envisageable que tu racontes en quelque mots (si c'est possible) comment tu voulais finir cette fic ?(hormis en 1*2) ... enfin ... ma question peut paraître tordue mais à défaut de lire le reste j'aimerai au moins savoir comment ca devait finir ^^;;; (ou plutôt comment toi tu envisageais la suite, car on peut faire plein de suppositions en étant lecteur...)

En tout cas merci pour ces moments que tu as fait passer avec Garous, elle reste et de loin une de mes favorites fic GW, bien qu'inachevée ^^

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[identity profile] mikkeneko.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 09:42 pm (UTC)(link)
had so much fun with it. But the fact is that this was my first fanfic, and I was still a teenager, and as all first fanfics, some parts of it kind of suck. Especially the beginning.

Starting to write without ever having seen the series? Check. Hints of Relena-bashing/Heero Hates Relena? check. Fangirl Japanese? Check. Quatre as a crybaby? Check. It got a lot better as time went on and I grew away from fanon


Dude, I'm totally with you.

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[identity profile] alien-duck.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Gah. No more Garou.... but if you're going to summerise, then there's some light left ^^ Question though. Are you going to take it down from everywhere, to stop the fanbrats from constantly telling you to update (because if most of them don't understand 'complete', they have less than no chance of understanding 'abandoned')? Because if you are, I need to go save them all to my computer rather quick ^^;

>waves little flags with werewolves on and puts flowers on Garou<

Former-random-lurker-person-who-finally-got-a-LJ

[identity profile] sunhawk16.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 09:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, I can't say it's an 'OMG' surprise at this point, but still sad. But I guess when the corpse grows cold, it's time to pull the sheet up and say goodbye.
It was a hell'a ride while it lasted though!
Truly would appreciate the translation and summary, just for the closure factor.

*goes to put on sack cloth*
Wonder if there's any ashes around here...

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[identity profile] dragynville.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 09:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Not terribly surprised either, but I'm just grateful for all the fun you've given us with it up to this point. I too will appreciate the translated bits and summary, it's the kindest way to finish an unfinished piece. :)

[identity profile] complexphoenix.livejournal.com 2006-06-07 10:11 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't know GW and haven't read Garou, but I've read a number of unfinished multiparts and I think... Gawd, If ONLY more fanauthors could admit when their multipart story is dead and be kind enough to summarize what was supposed to happen and come clean that there will be no more. Letting your readers believe there will be more when you honestly can't deliver is quite the way to torture them. Frankly? Better to say DISCONTINUED and then update anyway if/when you feel like it then leave them hanging for months with no word. In summary? GOOD FOR YOU, GIRL. MAJOR KUDOS.

And boy oh boy, if more people wrote fic without reading fic, letting their bunnies draw from canon rather than fanon... man.

And a lot of people probably did forget about it, but then you've always got new people watching the series, looking for fanfiction, finding it and reading it and harassing you to update.

And shiny-but-incoherent stuff can actually be quite fun... indeed, that might be an excellent definition of "crack" :)

[identity profile] traveling-storm.livejournal.com 2006-06-08 01:13 am (UTC)(link)
RIP Garou. ^^ I understand completely how you feel. Good luck with your new work. ^^

[identity profile] nekostella.livejournal.com 2006-06-08 01:22 am (UTC)(link)
Bah c'est la fin d'une ère ç_ç lol
Eh bien ca aura été une superbe fic et même si c'est pas 'fini' bah c'est quand même une de mes préférés, la preuve je ne suis pas yaoiste je n'aime pas le yaoi XD Les seuls auteurs qui font du yaoi et que je lis avec plaisir c'est toi et les oeuvres de kineko. Au départ j'ai commencer avec tes fics sur GW et quand j'ai vu que vous bougiez sur naruto j'ai été décu mais j'ai fini par me bouger sur naruto aussi XD Donc ej comprend qu'en changeant de fandom on perde un peu l'inspiration pour l'ancien ç_ç

Et puis au moin on a un résumé de ce que la fin aurait été c'est déja une consolation ^o^

Tu vas laisser tomber toutes les fics GW? ( notamment two knight? * yeux tous innocent lol*)
Bon bah plus qu'a continuer à se pencher sur les fics de naruto a venir , et pusi comme il a été dit auparavent, il reste les dessins que tu as fait *o*

courage ^o^

[identity profile] rurounitriv.livejournal.com 2006-06-08 02:04 am (UTC)(link)
This just reminds me why I never put anything out until I finish the whole story... I'm scared what would happen if I actually did come up with something everybody loved and then dropped it halfway through. Especially since most of my fics never get finished and never will. *is a baaaaaaaaaad writer, yes* XD

Ah well, RIP Garou... it was a fun ride while it lasted.

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[identity profile] lithiastar.livejournal.com 2006-06-08 12:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Like others I can not say I am surprised by this news. Saddened but not surprised. I will always love your GW fic, and Garou is/was one of my favorites. (Along with ‘Equilibrium’ and ‘Walking the Tightrope’) Ya know though… to me the end of chapter 32 ‘Rest & Relaxation’ always felt like a conclusion. When I read it, I knew there was more to come, but it just felt…complete at that point. *shrug* that’s just me I guess.

Oh and I am happy to finally learn what kind of animal Duo would have been.

Thank you for sharing Garou, it was great while it lasted (and just ignore/kill the idiots who flame you over this… they are stupid, I mean, it IS your story)

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