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shitty day, and i get to do it again tomorrow.
i hate groups of people. i hate making myself apologize for mishandling how to tell a queen nonstop-outdoors-voice "of course i have something to say about everything, over everyone, even when the thing i have to say is how it doesn't apply to me," that maybe she should rein it in!, but SHE doesn't apparently realize it's her cue for apologizing about 1) knowing she was doing it yet keeping on doing it anyway (becuz thats just teh way she is lulz) and 2) saying she was so angry she was about to hit me.
Also it's just the way she is and she isn't going to change for anything or anyone!!!, but she totes has the right to get angry when not shown the "appropriate respect." it goes both ways. Respect my right not to get totally fucking overloaded on nothing but pure noise. You're not the only one in the entire fucking world, big news.
This group is already chatty, and loud, and there's this other girl with an unfortunate high-pitched, nasal whine of a voice but at least she doesn't monopolize over 40% ( I am. Not. Fucking. Kidding.) of the speaking time of a group comprised of TWELVE people. I do not have the spoons.
I know I was supposed to stay three months with this group but I don't care how friendly she otherwise is, I did more than my fucking time with bullies and trying to intimidate me with that violence she totally cannot control and which will be my own damn fault if/when she unleashes it on me fucking counts as such, if tomorrow she isn't curbing herself I'm just going to leave, I don't give a fuck I'll be "running away." I'm not staying in a situation like this.
I used to live like this every day all week from kindergarten to university, the noise and the isolation and the constant aggression and the actual physical violence, how the fuck did I ever manage.
oh wait, i never managed.
I'm not going back, no, no, you can't make me.
Anyone has gundam wing fluff to link me? maybe ff7 or team seven.
i hate groups of people. i hate making myself apologize for mishandling how to tell a queen nonstop-outdoors-voice "of course i have something to say about everything, over everyone, even when the thing i have to say is how it doesn't apply to me," that maybe she should rein it in!, but SHE doesn't apparently realize it's her cue for apologizing about 1) knowing she was doing it yet keeping on doing it anyway (becuz thats just teh way she is lulz) and 2) saying she was so angry she was about to hit me.
Also it's just the way she is and she isn't going to change for anything or anyone!!!, but she totes has the right to get angry when not shown the "appropriate respect." it goes both ways. Respect my right not to get totally fucking overloaded on nothing but pure noise. You're not the only one in the entire fucking world, big news.
This group is already chatty, and loud, and there's this other girl with an unfortunate high-pitched, nasal whine of a voice but at least she doesn't monopolize over 40% ( I am. Not. Fucking. Kidding.) of the speaking time of a group comprised of TWELVE people. I do not have the spoons.
I know I was supposed to stay three months with this group but I don't care how friendly she otherwise is, I did more than my fucking time with bullies and trying to intimidate me with that violence she totally cannot control and which will be my own damn fault if/when she unleashes it on me fucking counts as such, if tomorrow she isn't curbing herself I'm just going to leave, I don't give a fuck I'll be "running away." I'm not staying in a situation like this.
I used to live like this every day all week from kindergarten to university, the noise and the isolation and the constant aggression and the actual physical violence, how the fuck did I ever manage.
oh wait, i never managed.
I'm not going back, no, no, you can't make me.
Anyone has gundam wing fluff to link me? maybe ff7 or team seven.